Everything happens for a reason
I used to hate God. People do that all the time because they don't get what they want. I thought the same, that is, I am not getting what I want. I have a family and they love me a lot. They have given me everything I have ever asked for- good clothes, good food, good education and a good home. What else did I want? Like every love struck girl out there, I craved for love- you know the "fairy tale" love shown in movies and read in book. I wanted that, just that but I never got it hence I hated God for that.
During the first year of my college I met this guy who wasn't exactly the Prince Charming I had imagined but yeah we became friends and then we became best friend- I think that was what we were from my side. I started liking him for who he was and that likeness slowly turned into love without me knowing it. The love I felt for him was something I couldn't control and in that trance I started to think that he loves me back too even though he gave me mixed signals. I didn't know what to do so one day I went up to him and just confessed my feelings to him and lo and behold he said he just saw me as a friend. I was heartbroken and this led to increase in the intensity of my hate for God. "Why me, God, why always me?" that is what I asked God until sometime back.
So, the guy I loved got a new girlfriend. I was slightly fazed but then I realized that he never respected what I felt for him in the first place. He was cool about it for sometime but then he just kind of started disrespecting me. I mean I thought we were friends, weren't we? I guess not. I didn't expect him to love me back but yes I did expect some respect. It turns out that he was an ass hole after all!
He called me names, he completely ridiculed me, he told people unacceptable things about me. So yeah! A complete shithead! He pissed me off real bad with the things he said and did to the point that I hate him now rather than hating God.
I literally thanked God that he never got us together. No girl wants to live with a jerk obviously. He would have ruined my life and completely weaken me. I am strong girl, a very strong one so he wasn't able to affect me much and it was concluded that God makes things happen for a reason because they are good for you. I believe in God now and I guess I kind of love him for saving me!
During the first year of my college I met this guy who wasn't exactly the Prince Charming I had imagined but yeah we became friends and then we became best friend- I think that was what we were from my side. I started liking him for who he was and that likeness slowly turned into love without me knowing it. The love I felt for him was something I couldn't control and in that trance I started to think that he loves me back too even though he gave me mixed signals. I didn't know what to do so one day I went up to him and just confessed my feelings to him and lo and behold he said he just saw me as a friend. I was heartbroken and this led to increase in the intensity of my hate for God. "Why me, God, why always me?" that is what I asked God until sometime back.
So, the guy I loved got a new girlfriend. I was slightly fazed but then I realized that he never respected what I felt for him in the first place. He was cool about it for sometime but then he just kind of started disrespecting me. I mean I thought we were friends, weren't we? I guess not. I didn't expect him to love me back but yes I did expect some respect. It turns out that he was an ass hole after all!
He called me names, he completely ridiculed me, he told people unacceptable things about me. So yeah! A complete shithead! He pissed me off real bad with the things he said and did to the point that I hate him now rather than hating God.
I literally thanked God that he never got us together. No girl wants to live with a jerk obviously. He would have ruined my life and completely weaken me. I am strong girl, a very strong one so he wasn't able to affect me much and it was concluded that God makes things happen for a reason because they are good for you. I believe in God now and I guess I kind of love him for saving me!
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